Relationships tend to move from one stage to the next without us being aware of it. One minute you’re nervous and excited to see the other person and before you know it you’re acting like an old married couple. Here are the stages of a relationship:
1. Courtship. This is the wooing stage where you try to win each other’s affections and are trying to impress each other. You aren’t officially a couple yet and you’re both determining whether or not you like each other. The courtship phase is fun and exciting but can also be stressful and nerve-wracking as you try to impress each other and aren’t secure in knowing the other’s feelings towards you.
2. Honeymoon. The honeymoon phase takes place when you’ve settled into a relationship and have the comfort in knowing that you both like each other and want to be together, but it’s still early enough that you’re having fun and enjoying every moment together.
I know you can’t see this, but i’m sorry. I never wanted for you to feel this way. I sure as hell know I don’t like the way this feels.
I lost a friend today.
He wasn’t just any friend, he was special to me. I don’t mean in a romantic way, but his presence meant a lot to me.
In the short time I’ve known him we developed a bond, it was like we just KNEW each other. We were on the same wavelength, enjoyed the same things, often times spoke the same thoughts. Kinda like a dynamic duo.
In my eyes we were pals. I enjoyed being around you. I never understood why. But i never felt more, not the same way you did. I found you attractive, and i was drawn to being around you more. You were so much fun, so interesting, different. You wanted to make things happen rather than just wait around for someone to tell you the plan.
We were like leaders. We ran all that shit.
It was cool having someone on my level, someone who wanted to do something with themself, rather than expect the world be handed to them.
I don’t mean in a physical sense, but i mean i know you have what it takes to get through difficult times. You may not believe it. You limit yourself by saying you can only do so much..
I never wanted things to go this far. You can’t expect me to just sacrifice all i have for maybe some comfort that’s closer by. I may be going through struggles in a relationship right now, but that doesn’t mean i’m ready to give up. Not yet, not any time soon. I will sacrifice whatever i need to make this work. I may doubt the way things are right now, i may not be believing in myself as much as i should.
But me crying a few times a week isn’t your concern. You shouldn’t feel that i’m never going to be happy in my situation and that you’re the answer. The answer doesn’t reside in another person making me happy, it all comes down to me being happy with myself. I’m not improving myself from the inside. I battle with myself every day, i get upset over silly things, i react negatively too quickly rather than hearing things out. I say one thing and do another. I don’t keep the promises i make to myself. I’m a disappointment in myself. It is no other persons job to fix me. Only i can fix me.
I’m selfish, i don’t like taking responsibility, i’m immature i can’t handle people pointing out my mistakes and personal flaws, i can’t take people raising their voice to me, i hate being wrong, i hate admitting i messed up, i often push the blame from myself, i make excuses, i justify my decisions as i child would, I can’t seem to see the ‘big picture, i have tunnel vision, i feel i’m more important, i hate sharing, i can be possessive i’m needy, i’m quick to be annoyed and to lose my temper, i can’t handle pain.
I’m a lot of things.
Sure, i have a lot of positive traits, but everything negative about me is stunting me from growing into a better person. I want to be the best me there can possibly be.
See, i’m so self focused everything this was supposed to be about became about me.
The point is, i want you as my friend still. Maybe we can’t handle that right now, just yet. When things settle down, things can be the way they should and if they can’t then i’m sorry we’ll have to forever part ways.
You may be cutting me off for now and i can deal with that. It’s sure as hell not easy. I’m struggling still to handle this.
I deserve all the hurtful things you ever decide to throw in my direction. I did this to you. I took advantage of your weakness knowing you’d willfully let me. I put blades within your soul, leaching the very life from you. I made you feel the way no one should ever feel. I don’t deserve you as a friend.
I’m kind of considering disappearing entirely from everyone. I disrupted the group dynamic.
I missed you from the second i left the last hug you’ll probably ever give me and walked inside my house. I couldn’t handle that hug a second longer, i was about to break down. The thought of hanging with friends with you there and not even interacting with me at all sounds like the worst possible thing. So to avoid any kind of conflict of people planning things and trying to keep us from being around each other, i’m going to remove myself from the equation to make things easier for you and everyone else.
You’ll be in my thoughts
I started a blog with motivational quotes i have found and ones i have come to me by epiphany. Everything is all on my twitter but i will gradually move everything over to here for those that need the extra “umph’ to stay motivated to reaching their goals :)
faith in humanity restored
Guys, being a millionaire is easier than having relationships. Obviously.
But i like my relationship :3
I’ve been seeing people like this way too much lately
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